29th May 2006

t'was a rendezvous with reality again today (29th May 2K6) why am i so scared of losing beloved friends? i just can't trust that they'll stand by me. this reminds me of the doha written by Ras khan : " why will a Koel come back to perch on the thorny cactus when it has savoured the sweet nectar of the sanguine mango tree? " i have experienced bliss by maintaing a nonchalant outlook to the actions of all mortals. and yet i have an attachment with mortals. silly isn't it!? but at that momment , the world was dark, and the only hand i that offered support was that of a mortal. why didn't i see thy Abhaya hasta O Lord? what action deserved a punishment so bad as this?

Of late the mind has been very wavery. the storm is very strong. O Lord! i pray in thee to guide me in these tough times. help me overcome the worldy and mondane "attractions" created by thou.

i see ppl of the opposite sexes being very informal and sharing initamte thoughts. are they exposing their weeknesses? ( last time i tried that i was adjudged and even a statement was passed!!) i just cant understand!

is it just to kill time? do they have so much time in hand? haven't they heard to "bhaja govindam"? if they are aware of the divine message, then why do ppl opt for the path that ends in sorrow?

satsangatve nissangatvam... what if there are no good ppl around? O Lord! how do i stick to your guidelines? i am scared to walk alone. will any1 join me? Sages are said to have no peer pressure... in that case who guides them? how do they discriminate?

how long can one depend on a Guru? aren't you a handicap if u did so? the supreme power has so casually discoursed the truth about life in just a single song! why is it that any ordinary person is so inefficient in following the teachings?

it is soothing to have some to laugh with, to go for the movies, enjoy in the park or a lounge... but is that what are born for? can we afford to give away too such worldy temptations?

and i conclude today by praying to the Almighty with these words:

asatoma sadgamaya,
tamasoma jyothirgamya,
mrutyorma amrutangamaya,
Om, Shanti, shanti, shantihi.

sarve janthu sukhino bhava
sarve janthu niraam yaha
sarve bhadrani shubaketu,
Ma, kat chit, dukha bhasyave.

Give every1 the power to see through the deceptive veil of maya, restore sight so that they can see the divine effulgence.

samdarsi naam tumharo, soi karm karo!